well i got a new xanga again, sorry that i keep changing xangas u dun have to suscribe to me ppls ne way its

www.xanga.com/without_music_i_die

so shakespeare!!! SO DRAMATIC!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!omg i am so lame.

i am mad at someone right now, for comparing me to him, no one feels my pain, no one should dare say that, or they have it worse. i am not like n e one, i am my own person. you know who you are, and you know what you should be ashamed of yourself, i know you want pity, but i won't give you pity don't think that i will. You will say you don't want pity. so prove it. if you can't prove it to me, then don't say anything at all.

Your LaLa! Your crazy and a little edgy sometimes..Some might day borderline phsycho (hem) u need to take a chill pill....really and stop taking what everyone sez so literally, you'll be much happier, n really actual happiness...

thats my telletubie, i knew it, i'm bipolar, i need to see a psychologist. AGAIN

i like this song even though i don't really like yellowcard, it makes me think about him.

"Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one "

i luv you jonathan

my eyes are red from crying, my dad yelled at me again. never hit me once i'm at least grateful for that, but what kind of kid is afraid to look at her father while he talking to you? or have to think b4 they say something, hoping it comes out right so he doesn't call you a sick minded lil bitch, dumbass, who can't think at all. i'm shaking. . . . i'm scared of him i am so scared . . . he told me never to be afraid, but in the end all i am is afraid. afraid of him, the world, the future, my future. i really want to run away, but i dun noe where'll i'll go, all my friends will probably rat out on me, or my dad will get mad. his words keep repeating in my head just pounding into my skull," you are sick minded, sick , sick, you are a dumbass a damn damn damn dumbass, you are so stupid.

I WANT TO LEAVE!